Sweet Things That Happened to Me in 2014

I know its a little bit late but I write it anyway.

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1. Start from January. I am very thankful I know you. We were arranged on the same group and since then I became one of your best buddies.

2. I passed junior high school with not so good grades but at least I passed that goddamn test?

3. Prom night & bts photoshoot. On photoshoot with 93 was so tiring as fuck yet fun because that was the first time me and you were in the same frame a.k.a i took a picture with you. And on prom, we were redoing our first photo.

4. I got to SMAN 70 Jakarta. I met new people, new environtment, everything are new. Was such a hell time at first but as time went by I surived.

5. Went to my first school gigs. I went to PL Fair with my best friend and that didn't end so well. After that I went to Gonzaga Festival and the happiness I felt there were beyond my expectation because I met my elementary school crush, and apparently he is a best friend of my junior high friend, and he keep asking about me to her. I watched the bands with my friends and him standing behind me. I am so happy because I thought he already forget me but he didn't. Those school gigs were so great till I had PED (Post Event Depression). LOL.

6. I can spend my holidays with my happy family.

kesimpulan: being single feels great if only you have someone to go back to.

and then, I'd like to thank God for giving me chance to pass 2014, thank everyone I met on 2014, thank you for being a part of my life,
especially, you.

every single day on 2014 you were there in my side, even in my darkest part.
thank you for not leaving my side,
thank you for supporting me each day,
thank you for comforting me in your unique way,
thank you for letting me into your life and I'm so happy could be a part of yours,
even though I know you love someone else which is so hard for me because I love you very damn much
but you only love me as a best friend, best buddies.

you're the one who makes me laugh
you make me have butterflies in my stomach
yet you're the one that makes me cry myself to sleep and put me in depression time.

I love you anyway,
promise me never leave my side.

Au Contraire (by G.L. Stark)

Arrows of Cupid couldn't pierce through your chest,
Borrowed time forever couldn't finish this quest,
Regrets are hoarding, I'm hoping they didn't fall,
Inside this tired heart or else I'll have to crawl,
Lower and deeper than my chances so small.

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Days turn to weeks, weeks into full moons,
Excitement shall end in some time soon.
Risks turn to fears, fears into silence,
Excitement shall knock on his frigid conscience,
Kissing in a little prescience.

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Arrows of Cupid couldn't pierce you any softer,
Regrets are falling, that's one thing I know,
And I'm still afraid that maybe your answer's
No.