For someone out there

Well,
i don't know what should i write but somehow i want to write something about you, literally us.
after long search of 'replacement' the old stranger who dumped me for no reason,
i found you.
i just fell in love with how you write, because we can't see each other profile pictures, even names.
once, i read someone post this sentence on ask.fm:

the way you write shows us a glimpse of your personality

well, how you write are different than other strangers that had been chatted with me before you.
and just that,
i became one of your friend, i guess?


the more time i spent for talking to you,
the more i fell in love.
no. not fell in love.
interested, actually.
i have been avoiding to got attached to you
but the more i tried to avoid,
the more i got attached.
so i let that flow, and enjoy that.

but i know you just broke up with your ex.
she dumped you.
i know you're madly, deeply in love with her.
but she didn't feel the same way again.
her feelings towards you are just blown away.

pfft. i know that feeling. that was my entire love life about.
i know how you feel. i know exactly how you feel.
so, there. i helped you to move on.

your ex told you that you have to go find someone else.
(i hope that wasnt sarcasm, tho)
there, i tried so hard to be her replacement, for giving attention, to make you feel like the break up didn't happen.

why i try so hard?
because i'm afraid.
i'm afraid i will lose you.
i'm afraid of losing someone once i close with.

so please,
stay?